practice

Sometimes, we just have to commit to the practice.

I spent the first week of this year on a writers retreat, in many ways engaging with aspects of spiritual practice that aren’t part of my practice normally - but before I got there I made a promise to myself to simply try and show up for as much of it as possible, not just the writing…and just do the things even if I didn’t immediately see or feel the benefit. 

I didn’t quite manage to go to yoga every morning, but I managed about half the sessions, and I did my morning pages every morning and both evening yoga sessions and the voice workshop…I leant into, as much as I could, all of it; and as I am reminded, again and again, you generally do learn something, or gain something, if you just lean in.

Now, of course, there are spiritual practices that won’t suit everyone or that individuals should avoid for this or that reason - discernment is real.

But those situations aside, I am finding, oh so painfully slowly sometimes but I am finding, that by committing, by doing, by not flinching away and not doing things half heartedly but by really committing, that I am taking the steps towards the spiritual growth I so desperately, painfully, want.

“It’s called a spiritual practice because you have to practice it” or whatever that phrase is…is a phrase I think annoys me because it’s true and I am petulant but it IS true.